My Decision to Medicate
I made my decision to medicate
Despite the chances of putting on weight
Despite the other side effects
That have to do with sleep and sex
Given the hours and days and years
That I've lived with indefensible fears
That some would call insane
I know I must be causing pain
Drugs to save the marriage
Drugs to spare the children
Drugs to make me easier to live with
Drugs to do myself a favor
A little tweak in my behavior
That was just this side of normal to begin with
In certain ways my existential state will stay the same
I'll still be dying day by day and know my name
I'll still have pain when things go bad, like anybody would
But maybe not so much when things go good |
Is there anything worse than
An adequately functioning person
Who calls himself insane
Because his plans went down the drain
Unless you're in love with your anxiety
I suggest you hold the piety
If you think this pain is necessary
Explain it to your family
Drugs to save the marriage
Drugs to spare the children
Drugs to make me easier to live with
Drugs to do myself a favor
A little tweak in my behavior
That was just this side of normal to begin with
Just this side of normal
Just this side of normal
Just this side of normal |
| © Mark Donato |
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